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17.10.03

here again.. haha.. todae veri relaxed xia.. juz now go play bowling.. haha.. i was the 3rd for the first game n last for the other 2 xia.. haha.. sobxx.. now my thumb damn pain.. haha.. but nvm ... i had fun.. with is the most important ting... haha.. i like veri noti rite?? haha.. O level wan to come liao then still go play.. haha.. but then tml is sat.. so nvm la.. later in the nite then study again.. haha.. hope tat i wont fall asleep too early.. haha...

todae.. sumting bad happen leh... i had a quarrel with my frenz..i broke my friendship with them.. coz i got a group of frenz in scouts one.. then we last time all veri gd.. do wat also together... but then recetly.. they say tat i have change.. then dun like my atittude all these la..then they actually wanted me to slove this prob todae la.. by going out for lunch... but then i went to play bowling with my classmates instead lor.. then they not happy... sae tat if i dont go.. like i treat them not one of them like tat... then i veri tu lan liao.. then i sae... if u all are going to sae until like tat... then forget it lor... so like tat.. our friendship also no more liao... haizz... grow up until so big.. first time exprience tis kinda or tings.. dunno how to handle.. lucky now sch finish liao.. not go to sch i also dunno wat to do if i see them walking on the corridor.. haizz..

i tink i talk abt them.. actually.. they are quite good frenz la... for example... good.. caring...
n wat a fren shld be... they have in them... but i dunno y la.. me n them started to drift apart starting of this yr.. i myself also dunno wat happen lor.. i ask them... they also not sure.. haizz.. but then.. i also hate some of the ppl in there lor.. like wm.. kc also la.. but not so much.. he onli dunno how to tink for himself onli...always follow wat others ppl sae...haizz.. then tat wm... i tink i got talk about him before rite?? i tink so.. kk... i tok again... he like the leader of the group lor... he like decides for the group... tats y i don like.. but then yesterday i tok to glen... he says tat the suggestions tat wm sae one all veri gd lor... tats y they everytime go ahead wif his idea lor.. so now.. i dunno he is siding him or wat lor.. haizz...aniwae.. we also fall out liao.. so no use bothering abt it.. tat grp also wan me to change la.. then i also veri fed up liao lor.. i also wondering rite.. how come they everytime onli tink abt my bad pts leh?? y don they instead tink of my gd pts leh?? then isnt it happier?? unless in their eyes.. i hav no gd pts... then like tat i got nutin to sae...

now i sae me inside tat grp la. last time rite.. all of us veri gd one.. like i said before... then now.. they sae i like being the spoilsport like tat.. coz when go out... i will show tat sian face.. then everyone see liao morale drop.. so aft a few times... they don ask me go out liao... i tink tat wat they do veri sian lor.. so i gif tat sian face.. then wat they tok abt.. i also dunno.. so i also juz listen.. then they sae i don contribute to the group.. i feel tat if i like juz like tat cross into the conversation like not veri gd lor.. coz i got one classmate in calss la.. he veri kpo one lor.. ppl tok wat he also wan to noe.. so everyone also don like him.. then i dun wan to be like him.. so i keep quiet.. but then keep quiet also wrong.. coz no contribution.. haizz.. like tat also cannot.. the other way also cannot.. haiz.. i also got go reflect abt my actions lor.. but then.. i cant really tink abt wat did i do wrong lor.. haizz...

lastly.. then also got a chalet in the dec holi.. at first.. they were tinkin tat if they shld invite me.. but now.. is a clear no liao..so i tink tis holi will be abit sian..haizz.. but then if i go n the conflit was not solve.. they also not happy rite?? so dun go better wat.. like tat everyone will be happy..

haizz... tink todae i veri lou shou la.. gald tat u hav the patience to read todaes one... haha... hope u can gif me ur comments..